Sleepless nights and u not by my side ...

It's just that I'm ready to take the pain again,
Even if all my Love has flown in Vain,
You made me feel, I am insane.
Right said the world, yes I am Inane.

Loved you on day, when i felt so Lonely,
Called for that Love on those sleepless nights,
You'r memoirs are my sweetest gifts,
Can't figure out the reason for my mood shifts.

I wanted to hold you tight,
For you against the world, i would fight,
When shadows gloom everywhere, i ll show you light,
Make the sun shine for you, even in the darkest nights.

Take a step ahead, come c my tears,
My heart is trembled all with fears,
Afraid to loose you, everyday it seers,
One more day goes by and the dreaded day nears.

I am tired of all the toil,
Kicked by all, like they do, to the dust in the soil.
Rounded up my life seems like a coil,
Everyday in my life's just a turmoil !!!

How it goes !!!

My life is a dream on the way to Death !!!
I love to rule, but i have lost my kingdom and i ain't gettin it back.
I love writing, but i have lost my inspiration to those words.
I love laughing, but it's just that it takes a lot to make me smile today.
I love being a trickster, but I didnt understand the tricks of life.
I love to Care about people, but it's just that NO ONE CARES about me.
I love to c people smilin, but i think people prefer me the oda way round.
I love to keep things as memories, but it's just that i am losing them everyday.
I love to commit, but it's just that they always break me.
I love to respect, but it's just tht I have always been deemed, a loser.
I have always admired, but it's just that I have always been lowered.
I love to dream, but it's just that every dream of mine has been shattered.
I love to sing, but none of them seem to rhyme today.
I live to fight another day, but it's just tht I loose the next day again.
I strum the strings, but it's just tht the melody seems a noise again.
I love color, but it's just that Life is becumin Colourless everyday.
I knw Patience is an attribute, but it's just that the wait doesn't seem to be over.

I love ur pictures, but it's just that everytime I click them, they posterize negativity.

I love to keep you in my heart,

But it's just that, the worst part is holding on to someone,

Who doesn't want to be hold on to !!!

Weaved Dreams ....

Words which u nevr spelt,
Were the words, it seemed i heard,
Those dreams even so unreasoned,
Kept on weaving them still.

Every time the distance seems further,
And my Love grows older,
I makin me a promise,
My silent eyes would not speak,
Will let my tears enrich those words,
But will kip on dreaming the unreasoned dream still,
And will weave them further.

Those unspelt words bubblin of my shiverin lips,
The unconditioned Love of my shattered heart,
I don't find the one beside me to be beside,
The illusionary maze spreads far nd Wide.
But will kip on dreaming the unreasoned dream still,
And will weave them further.

That moment when i see you again,
Gets me, my soul inane,
Why presides sadness in my smile,
A world which seems so benile,
But will kip on dreaming the unreasoned dream still,
And will weave them further.

Atrocious

Benath the blue heavens,

It's people makin it 3+3 7's.

Creatin mayhem,

And such atrocity,

Lividness and animosity,

And an unknown curiousity,

And defining an utmost insanity.

The Pen's dying to rust,

And the paper fadin to rust,

A soul thirsty of lust,

Cravin for fist,

A bit hazy like mist,

Seems a devil juss kissed.

This is the time to find a station,

Which wouldn't be a part of ur invasion,

The one of which i would be a mason,

And would be a part of my elevation.

It's my past's crematory,

In the labrotory of love,

And a chemical to be alkaline,

The platonic life of mine,

And the sun that would never shine,

Decaying my life on the line.

Days

There were days when i luvd you,

There were days when i cared,

There were days when my Love was so indespensible,

It was you with whom everythin' i shared.

There were days when you inspired,

U were the one which motivated,

There were days of such captivation,

And so were the days of Lamentation.

There were days when you hurt me so bad,

There were days when i was so Sad,

There were days of those sweet surrender,

There are days when memories just meander.

There are days when u would make me hate u,

There are wen u wouldn't realise the unmounted pain.

There are days of this serenity,

And there were days of the uncalled divinity.

U make me hate you one more day,

U make me cry one more second.

You can't beat my Love,

Even if u hate me all life long.

U deserve sumone bettr, U deserve sumone gud.

Do you feel someone should?

I neva knew why not me, and why oders,

U alwyz make me feel like a Loser.

U r the one who devastated,

U r the one who ruined it all.

U r the one i gave in everything for,

U ll feel my absence,

Feel the neccesity,

U don't seem to value me,

By this summer u ll find no more of me....

I Hate wat u did...

Love had begun flowin upsurged,
It was you who brought life,
It was you who brought Day & Night,
It was always you, who at my sight,
Enchanted the world around with your might.

You in my life brought so much of Love,
Quenched my unendin thirst,
With yo'r magic pill of sublimity,
But you put all of them today at humility,
Destroying all of my Serenity,
I knw u dun even hav the humanity,
To come bac and say me SORRY !!!

The world hated me,
But u hurt me the most,
Thot u of as the breeze who would get d life kindled,
But turned out to be d blemish of my life.
You will neva understand the Pain,
You will neva feel the desire,
Coz u r a heartless stone,
Who wants me to moan.

It was you who made me Cry,
Around me when everyone used to smile,
Remember you for all you did,
Should have neva eva Luvd u indeed.
Its me who to u is thankful,
You kip me hurtin more n more,
But u would neva knw,
The more u hurt, the more i Love,
The more u hurt, the more i pray thee to bless.

You call me a LOSER !!!
May b i am, 
The only reason coz i din get you,
But the quex. i ll ask is?
If i m a LOSER !!!, what are u??
My definition the biggest LOSER in this world.
Coz today u hav lost me, 
Even if i m no one,
But this thing is all over and done,
I m all gone,
And its rite at the end of the day,
I ll kip my mouth shut, and it's you who Won.